Alone

I stand alone. I have the feeling that if I keep telling people that I don't feel well, they will be fed up with me and turn away. And I see it will be a long, long struggle. Everybody else seems to handle physical infirmity well. Gung ho attitude! And I see only trouble ahead. It has been a huge disappointment to me that I should be so feeble-minded. And too weak to pretend.